confession:

i am horrible with confrontation. as {ahem} bitchy and cold as i can occasionally be, for some reason i find it hard to approach others about something that could (/will) upset them.

current case in point: quitting this damn job. it really shouldn’t be that difficult for me to just stand up and say,

HEY! :waves hand: LOOK AT ME! i just graduated from a not-so-shabby university, am a commissioned officer in the united states army, and have a lot to offer the world! i don’t deserve to sit here twiddling my thumbs for eight dollars an hour while you bitch at me about washing towels! i’m done!”

(sorry, that was a lot of exclamation points – all caps is just too abrasive for me right now)

why/how is it so hard for me to say that?!

ARGH.

a big part of my problem is i want to do it at the perfect time (doesn’t exist) and in a way that will preserve my relationship with my boss(es), who is a cool girl with a huge network of local small business owners {mentors} that will help me immensely in my {imagined} entrepreneurial future.

as my bff would say, i need to {figuratively} nut up & do it. this morning, i’m going to do it.

even though i don’t have a second job yet.

{well, aside from wedding planning… and national guard… umokayfine i have a few jobs, just not full-time ones}

even though bf is bugging me about paying for rent and assorted other bills which are all due soon. 

{i made more $$$$ during two weeks of national guard training that i would in two months of this job. depressing? hells yes}

even though i still haven’t gotten my hair done for free. 

{what kind of a girl works at a hair salon for 4+ months and never gets her hair cut/colored/anything, even though it’s gratis? i’m clearly a disgrace to womankind}

!!! خلاص  {enough! i’m done!}

BOOSH.

&& this ridiculous picture from halloween 2010 encapsulates how i feel
&& this ridiculous picture from halloween 2010 encapsulates how i feel
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